So you may feel useless because people kept telling you from childhood that you could do better if you worked harder. So you worked harder but never got to be first. So then you got very pissed off, set fire to some things, smoked some joints and decided you were useless. Many successful film people started life like this. Film People are kind of outlaws anyway: it’s not a proper job. So if you’ve got bored of being bored, then working in film might just prove to you that you’re good at something, even if you can’t figure out what it is. Yet.
it’s meant to be